Self Reflection comes at weird times . I sat realizing just how hectic my life was how consumed I'd become by all my responsibilities, pondering the possibility that its effect was paradoxical to what I had intended.
As I drove to school last week iced coffee in hand, my weapon against late night chemistry reviews, I became increasingly frustrated with the car in front of me who had decided to drive at a speed that was unforgivable for most Floridians trying to get on the 95 at 7 in the morning . Did this man not realize I had already left my house ten minutes later than I was suppose to -of course he didnt but I did and to me that was enough- , words flashed through my head describing the type of person that would dare drive at 30mph in the middle of morning rush hour, they ranged from inconsiderate to dankish doghearted haggard.
I was only behind this guy for about 5 minutes but in those five minutes I realized how wrong I was , I was only a couple minutes behind schedule and I was already upset and stressed. This self confession led me on a journey to figure out why being as easy going as I am I had become so annoyed .I asked myself if doing as much as I could do had in fact made me more detached from the world , If in giving up a great portion of my free time I had also given up the things that made me who I am .
I reflected on the last couple of weeks and how much I had done , worse yet I realized it would only get worse before it got better . I thought about how I had to complete my Latin class once and for all , how all my AP and AICE test where less than a month away and how much extra work that would require, the fact that I wanted to raise as much money for my class as I could before the year was over, and of course how much I needed to do before I was ready to leave for Germany . I thought of those and so many other things before I realized that I wouldn't be me if I didn't take those challenges . So yes maybe the road rage was a little much, and I really should try to get away from my iced coffee habit and relax a little bit more but at the end of the day I wouldn't change who I am .
As I drove to school last week iced coffee in hand, my weapon against late night chemistry reviews, I became increasingly frustrated with the car in front of me who had decided to drive at a speed that was unforgivable for most Floridians trying to get on the 95 at 7 in the morning . Did this man not realize I had already left my house ten minutes later than I was suppose to -of course he didnt but I did and to me that was enough- , words flashed through my head describing the type of person that would dare drive at 30mph in the middle of morning rush hour, they ranged from inconsiderate to dankish doghearted haggard.
I was only behind this guy for about 5 minutes but in those five minutes I realized how wrong I was , I was only a couple minutes behind schedule and I was already upset and stressed. This self confession led me on a journey to figure out why being as easy going as I am I had become so annoyed .I asked myself if doing as much as I could do had in fact made me more detached from the world , If in giving up a great portion of my free time I had also given up the things that made me who I am .
I reflected on the last couple of weeks and how much I had done , worse yet I realized it would only get worse before it got better . I thought about how I had to complete my Latin class once and for all , how all my AP and AICE test where less than a month away and how much extra work that would require, the fact that I wanted to raise as much money for my class as I could before the year was over, and of course how much I needed to do before I was ready to leave for Germany . I thought of those and so many other things before I realized that I wouldn't be me if I didn't take those challenges . So yes maybe the road rage was a little much, and I really should try to get away from my iced coffee habit and relax a little bit more but at the end of the day I wouldn't change who I am .
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